The finnal card

There's nothing any more.
I hide it all from the world.
No one knows who I really am.
I only wish you'd understand.

I had my reasons,
No doubt they're there.
I know I have betrayed you.
I didn't know what to do.

I never should have said I'm sorry.
It doesn't take the pain away.
I couldn't stop myself
I shouldn't have asked you for help.

Leave me here to waste away.
In the world there's no pain
But leave me here to die.
Don't worry, I will not cry.

I never thought you'd do it.
I never thought that I could let you.
I thought you fell,
you only ever did so well.

I was never truely jelous of her.
She was the one that suited you
of the two of us.
No, I don't think that me I could trust.

Can there be more?
How can there be?
Who am I to judge you?
Who am I to judge what you do?

Leave me alone.
You're far too involved.
Go away forever.
It's only clever.

I'm a monster.
Don't deny it.
I know I am
That is where I stand.

It's only to protect you.
Don't cross my word.
I understand you,
you don't have a clue. . .

There's more behind this wall.
You never saw what lies here
under all the scars.
The real me is so far.

Please don't do this
to me atleast.
It's dangerous.
My god you're vigorous.

I'm walking out the door.
I know there is nothing.
Nothing is good.
This, is good.

I've decided you'll never leave.
It's all up to me.
As it always was to tell you
what lies ahead to run into.

Now I do it again.
Please, listen to it.
I know it is hard.
but this, is the finnal card.